I was still breathing hard when he unbuttons the last button of the Jean before trailing his hand over my pant, rubbing against it slowly in a way that made my stomach turns and tightens.
“I have always wanted to do this the very day you looked up at me with those judging eyes. ”
He whispers in my ear, softly biting my ear. Oh god.
I bite down on my lip to stop myself from moaning and I only did it when I try nodding to what he said, earning a chuckle from him.
“you want this, right? I don’t want to do anything you don’t want. You want me to do this, right? ” He asks and I almost huff. Does he even have to ask. God, I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me. Why the hell would I say that? I shouldn’t want this. I shouldn’t be doing this at all and yet…
“Yes. ” My voice comes out cracked and hoarse and he nods his head against me, wrapping his arm against my body to keep me in place while I lean further in against him.
“I wouldn’t stop eitherways. ” He whispers, slowly pulling my pant down and his finger grazing over me.
f**k. f**k. f**k. She feels so good against me, So warm against my body and her body is something I can’t stop trailing my fingers around.
She is too good for me. She doesn’t deserve this, doesn’t deserve someone like me. I would ruin her it seems but yet. Yet, I can’t get enough of this girl. All I want is to just bury myself inside her. Let her know that she does something to me. Something terrible. Something I don’t think she would be able to take.
She wriggles against me, pushing her body against my hardened erection that has been that way the moment I walked through that door and she raises her lashes, stating at me through those damn eyes!
I don’t think she notices what she’s doing to me. She has been sitting between my legs, her body pushes against me and yet, not for once had she asked if I want something. If everything is okay. She’s so innocent that it surprises me sometimes how she had managed to be like that. All the times actually. She isn’t supposed to be like this. She should be wild. Open, like those girls I’m constantly f****ng but I can’t seem to anymore because of her.
Yet, I can’t contain the joy in me with the fact that she’s like this. Perfect. I am beyond perfect but I can’t stay away from her, no matter how much I try. No matter how hard I try not to.
“What are we doing here, Javier? ” These are rare times when she calls my name like that. Rare times when my body reacts to the sound of my name coming out of her mouth. Rare times when I see nothing else in this world but her. The innocent girl that’s perched between my thighs like this and it’s times like this, I know that I truly don’t deserve her. If that’s my wants, her body. Anything that it is that I’m seeking from her, I don’t deserve to have it. It’s times like this, I should admit and let go of her cause I will only ruin her.
I can’t do this with her. I have never felt guilty with anyone else but with her, I can’t which is why I did once again what I’m always doing. Run.