All this while after dre’s death felt like an eternity for all of us but to those closest to him
we all revolved around Dre
I watched the cleansweeps go through tough times
Dre was everything to them
without him they felt like nothing
they had no direction
Mike became a soliloquiser
john was no longer a talkative
Tobi wasn’t his usual self
although he tried his best to keep the team together
Tobi felt wronged
some days you’ll see him examining dre’s shoes
the same shoes Dre would fling at him each time he was misbehaving
tears would well up in his eyes
so he is really gone
*who is going to yell at me now,,,who’s going to beat me up for messing up,,who is going to pull my ears for squad meeting ,,who is going to-*
unable to continue
he would burst out crying
it was like the most painful experience
for anyone
at one time
when the cleansweeps seemed like they were getting better
they approached me and asked me to be their new lead vocal
“kenna,,, I know you have a good voice,,,and you’ve done some musicals in the past. ,,so pls help us out,,,we need to do this last performance,,,atleast to fulfil dre’s last wishes”
I was dumbfounded
it wasn’t my place
I couldn’t take the offer
Dre can never be replaced
never!
even if anyone should be their lead singer after Dre ,,,it should be Muna
I knew it in my heart
but
“forget him, , Muna is practically no longer a human being!!”
john voiced out!
“john”
Mike cautioned him
john folded his arms in a pouty mood
Muna on the other hand was completely broken
it was almost as if he was determined to self destruction
I watched Muna go in and out of jail
the world no longer Made any sense to him
he was simply drifting
it was a surprise he hadn’t hurt sonia yet
seeing as they lived in the same house
but I know sonia
she must really have been careful
avoiding him smartly
I later got to find out a little altercation
between the cleansweeps and Muna the first time he got arrested
they had tried to talk to him on his way home
the talk got so heated
it actually turned into a fist fight
Muna slapped john for making a statement
when Mike tried to intervene.
it turned into a rough brawl
that was the first time I saw hate in the eyes of these guys who were tighter than brothers
they went home sour
taking different paths
it seemed like the last time they’ll ever speak to each other
what happened
why was all this happening
why was everything starting to fall apart!
I guess the same questions rang in Sonia’s head as she walked down the streets
following bills closely
she wondered where the hell this little doggy was taking her to
it didn’t make anysense that bills came home without him and then the dog started barking frantically
instead of coming inside
the dog kept barking outside
trying to send signals
trying to voice out somethin
at first she couldn’t understand this little hairy feline
what was it tryin to say
what exactly was wrong
was it hungry?
or did something happen
it was until sonia stepped outside that she realised that bills was trying to take her somwhere
it still wagged its tail increasing its pace as it led sonia straight to gyang area
the outback side of bongos
sonia was begining to wonder why Muna came out all the way here
she kept her sweaty palms intact and wished nothing bad happened
her heart was racing as the little dog took her all the way through the rocky ridges
and straight towards the giant gyang lake
she could almost hear her heart in her throat
it was until she walked upon the wooden panel of the over head bridge
she saw a figure a few paces infront of her
she then realised
Muna was standing ontop of the garder
he had his arms stretched out
his eyes closed in peace
bills increased his barking
and whining at the same time
the enstranged dog couldn’t understand why his master was about to do this
sonia slowly walked towards him
her face in fright
she asked
“Muna what…what ..whatre -,,, what are you doing up there”
Muna opened his eyes and stared at her with his cold eyes
he simply said
“go home sonia,,,there is nothing here”
she seemed aback
“but why are you,,, why are you standing up there”
Muna had an impatient Look on his face
then he said
“are you blind,,,no tell me,,,can’t you see,,,I’m leaving sonia,,,I’m going to ask him why”
there was a tinge of desperation in her voice now
“Muna pls get down,,,pls just come down from there”
Muna scoffed
“you want me to get down,,,that’s funny you know,,,you see sonia there are lots of thins we want in this words,,,but the fvcking problem is that,,,this world is a b!tch,,, it will never give you what you want,,, unless of course you go and take it yourself,,,,which is exactly what I’m trying to do now,,,”
sonia knew whenever Muna uses vulgar words ,, he must be really determined
she decided to take his cue
in order not to piss him off
she slowly climbed the garder and tiptoed to him
Muna noticed her from the corner of his eyes
“don’t even think about it,,,it all ends here ok,,,all this shit ends here,,,so you better back off sonia,,,before I lose my patience!”
she started to plead
“Muna,,,you can’t swim. ,,why are you trying to do this,,,you’ll die fo-”
he cut her off
“of course I can’t swim,,,are you dumb or something,,,,what the hell do you think I’m here for huh,,,do you think this is a joke!!!”
he was speaking at the top of his voice now
sonia was starting to lose her nerves
“but Muna pls, ,think about what you’re trying to do,,,what would Dre say if he saw you doing this”
she hoped maybe using the “what would Dre say” gimmick would work on him,,,maybe,,, bringing him back to his senses
Muna kept mute for a while
then he said
“well the punk shouldn’t have died in the first place,,,he shouldn’t have betrayed me,,,he promised,,,he said it himself,,,he’ll never leave me,,,”
she kept tiptoeing closer to him
she then caught the scent of alcohol from his breath
no wonder
Muna had an intolerance to alcohol
this was a fact she knew pretty well
just a little sip from it could mess up his mind
she then said
“Muna ,,,what about cleansweep,,,the guys need you,,,you can’t also leave them too,,,”
Muna laughed again
“cleansweep?,, which cleansweep?,,, sonia,,have you been living under a rock,,,Dre is dead!!,,, I mean dead,,, there is no cleansweep without Dre ,,,without him,,,cleansweep is nothing,,,,you hear me!,,, nothing!!,”
he sounded deranged
sonia was almost frightened
but she then said
“but they are your friends Muna,,,and dre ‘s friends too,,,and you were friends with Dre too,,,don’t disappoint him like this””
Muna scoffed again at her unbelievable words
his voice was hoarse as he said
“friends?,,, friends you say?,,, Dre wasn’t my friend sonia,,,he may just be a friend to them,,,but not to me,,,he was my brother,,,my big bro!!,,, the bro who promised would never leave me,,,!!,, the same fvcking promise! my biological bro gave me!!,, its us against the world Muna”,,, those where the same lies my brother told me,,! ,but when things went bad,,,guess what he did!!”
sonia just blinked at him
he then said
“he left sonia,,,he dumped me on the streets and left!!, he said “wait here ,,,I’ll be right back”,,, I never saw him again,,,never!!”
a tiny tear dropped on muna’s cheek
he wiped it off immediately
“Dre found me,, yeah,, people always thought the old man was the one who found me!,, but no,,,it was all Dre,,,he took me to the man ,,,,and you know the funny thing is , ,those were the same words Dre told me when he decided to die,,,”wait here Muna,,,I’ll be back with the instruments”
sonia now realised why this was too unbearable for Muna
Muna felt betrayed twice
this wasn’t just about Dre anymore
it was about everything
his entire past
she knew nothing much about his life from before
but it seemed like it was filled with some deeper stories
she hoped one day he would share it with her
one day!
if he doesn’t go down here first
Sonia’s eyes were teary as she spoke
“Muna,,,but Dre will always be with us,,,with you,,! you should know that”
he faced the deep water beneath them and said
“don’t be filled by all that crap sonia,,,this world is filled with lies,,,deceits,, ”
he looked up towards the sky
and screamed
“and hypocrites!!,,,you hear me,,,you’re freaking hypocrites!!,, I hope you’re happy up there!!,, you corward!!”
he looked towards the water and started yelling
“I’ll end it all!!,,, i ll end everything,,,there is nothing else to live for!!,,, they both left me!!,, I’m all alone ok!!,,, I have no one!!,, absolutely no one!!”
she couldn’t bear his deranged state anymore
she ran forward and held him tight from behind
“what about me Muna!!,, huh? you have me!!,, you do!,, and I swear to you,, if you go anywhere I’ll go with you ,,, don’t do this to me pls,,,I’m begging you!!, for my sake!,, pls ,,pls pull yourself together”
she tightened her grip across his stomache
getting ready for him to drag her away from his body
but she had made up her mind
even if he hits her
beats her
or slaps her
she would not let go
she was ready for whatever would come
but suddenly
she felt his body throbbing
he seemed to be convulsing
she seemed quizzed
it took her a while to notice that the convulsing was actually him sobbing
it started slow and silent
but soon it turned out to a full blown anguish
sonia was speechless
it was a little unbelievable
Muna was crying!
for the first time in her life
she saw and felt Muna cry
it was hard to also hold back her own tears
but in that breif moment
she was glad
she was glad that he was finally letting it out
finally freeing himself
Tbc
