“James flung my hand away and said “Pregnant? For who?”
My heart sinked and my mouth went dry.
At that moment, i was confused on where James was driving at with his rhetoric question and my greatest fear was been denied by love.
I waved a hand into james face and asked him what he ment by the question he asked.
James repeated the question and i gave him a reflex slap. I was so mad at him.
I shouted at him and questioned his love for me in the first place. I called him names and told him he was a coward. I even went to the extent of telling him he was just like every other guy. My heart was broken but i could not force James to take responsiblities, all i could do was to rant and speak out my mind.
When i was contended with all that i have said, i decided to leave since James did’nt utter a word.
I was about to pick up my bag when James called my name and said “Lilly, is it mine?”
I would have landed another slap on James face for his question but when i looked at him, i realised he was just as confused as i was. I realised he was not questioning me because he did’nt want to take responsibilities but he was doing it because he wanted to be sure.
I dropped my bag and told James he was responsible. He reached for my hand and slowly led me to the chair.
James apologized for asking an unreasonable question and he confessed his love for me once more.
James made me realise that he could not take responsibility for my pregnancy because of his family status and his carrier.
James promised me heven and earth on the condition that i would get rid of the pregnancy. He told me we would get married soon, after which we could have kids.
Though i did’nt take hid to my parent’s advice against pre-marital s-x, their advice against abortion was something i did’nt lost.
I stood up to James and told him that i would never abort for no reason. Though i had no idea of how i would survive, i was sure i would never commit the sin of abortion. I spat into James face and told him to go to hell with his promises. I promised him that never to come back to him and I promised myself that I would survive no matter what.
Though i tried to be strong, i was so weak deep down.
After leaving James apartment, i was lost in my world for two weeks. I did’nt step out of my room, i forgot about school and i did’nt even bother to contact my parent. I allowed time heal my wound but the scar did’nt fade away.
After two weeks of hiding from the truth, i decided it was time to move on and take responsibilities for myself.
The first move i made was to gather all the material things James gave to me. I packed it all in a box and dumped it in front of his house.
I got a new cell phone and i placed a call through to my parent. I told them i was fine and i lied that school was great. My parent were happy to hear from me and so was i.
I also decided to go to a hospital and carryout an official pregnancy test.
“St. Nicholas hospital” was the first hospital that came to my mind and that was where i ended up having the pregnancy test.
Even though i knew i was pregnant, I found myself nervous when i was waiting for the test and after awhile of waiting i was handed the result. I burst into tears immediately and all the emotions i thought were hidden crawled out. I cried my pain out and i found my strength afterward.
Right there i decided to bare my pain alone, without my family or the world.
I pulled myself together and requested to register for Anti-natal treatment.
I was directed to an office after settling my bill. I met with the youngest doctor in the hospital and ever since then my life took a new turn.
He introduced himself has “Dr. Abiodun”.
He was gentle and homely even though i was harsh on him whenever his question get personal. The Dr. ended up jotting down my number after examining my condition properly.
Three months later, i was beginning to have a protruding stomach and i was becoming uncomfortable with my body. I visited the hospital regularly and i made the young doctor my adviser.
After the first three months, i was scheduled for scan.
On that very day, i had mixed feelings. I was happy i would be meeting my unborn child and i was sad because i had no one to go with. All in all, i got ready to see my future.
I was visibly shaking when i laid on my back infront of the scanning machine. I wanted to be happy to see my unborn child but i was scared he/she would end up blaming me for the mistakes i made.
Dr. Abiodun reduced the pressure on me by making me tell him my desired s-x and the name i would love to give to my child. I got carried away by the talk and shortly after the baby appeared on the scanner.
I asked the doctor to interpret what was on the screen.
He smiled and said “You are a beautiful mother of a set of twin”
“Twin?!!!” I shouted as i fixed my gaze on the screen.
LIFE WAS UNFAIR!
I looked away from the screen and bowed my head in tears.The scan result was something that broke my heart.”how am i suppose to raise a set of twins?” i asked myself.
The young doctor held my hand, He smiled widely and said “though you did not ask for the s-x of your kids, it’s my duty to tell you. You are carrying two beautiful girls ma’am.I’m hoping,they will be as beautiful as you are”
I did’nt give a response to the doctor’s speech,i only thought about how everything turned out to be negative and it was as if God himself was mad at me.
At first,i got pregnant out of wedlock.Secondly i was rejected by love and just when i was hoping for a boy, the scan result revealed that i was carrying two girls.
Everything seemed imperfect for me and i doubted if my decision to keep the pregnancy was the right one. I decided to ask the doctor if i could have an abortion and go back to my previous life.
I seek to meet with the young doctor privately after the scan test.He invited me to his office and i followed with my heart in my mouth.I was scared of him going against my decision to have an abortion and that was exactly what i got from him.
I informed Dr. Abiodun of my decision to have an abortion immediately we settled in his office and he strongly went against my decision.He went on and on to tell me the implications of abortion and how beautiful it is to see one’s first fruit.
Though the doctor was a good counselor,i was still bent on having an abortion. My stubbornnes made the doctor seek for a tangible reason for my decision.At first, i did’nt want to respond to his question but i eventually did when i saw the concern in his eyes.
Ever since i left James,i did’nt receive love or care from no one,it’s been just me caring for myself.
The doctor sat close to me and told me to confide in him. I got emotional and i unleashed all my hidden pain.I narrated my story without leaving a stone untouched.The young doctor gave me a listening ear and a open arm when my emotions got a better part of me.I felt relieved after sharing my mistakes with DR. Abiodun and i felt better when he offered me a piece of advice.The doctor’s advice was timely and it renewed the hope i lost.All in all, the doctor promised to stay with me through my rough time, he promised to help patch my ugly past.My faith grew and i became a stronger fighter.
Right after the meeting with the Dr,he insisted on following me home as a new found friend.
I accepted after much persuasion and i waited in his office for an hour because he was yet to complete his shift.
After the wait, the Dr. Signed out and we both left for my apartment.
The doctor was fun to be with,he was jovial and lively. Over the short period of time we spent together,he made me stop calling him “Dr. Abiodun”and he instructed me to call him “Biodun” instead.
Biodun decided that i should make a nursery for my girls and he also selected the room that i would use.Together we cleared the room and we went shopping for the nursery.Though i did’nt want the pay to be on him, he insisted that it was just a penny from him.We also shopped for maternity dresses before we enventually went to his apartment.With my experience with James,i was not suppose to trust men no longer but Biodun stayed with me irrespective of my condition.His beautiful promises and his act of loyalty made me trust him completely.Though we were just friends,his presence ment alot.
Throughout the period of my pregnancy,i kept in contact with my parent.I did’nt reveal a thing to them and i did’nt give them a reason to doubt the fact that my education was going all fine.
Throughout this period as well,my path never for ones cross with James’s.
Throughout this same period of time Biodun was the only family i had.
During the 8th month of my pregnancy,I was about to turn off my light after a long day with Biodun when i felt a sharp pain in my stomach.I paced my room just as Biodun instructed me to whenever i had such pain. I felt a strange urge to ease myself suddenly and i made to the restroom.I was yet to pull off my pant when i felt an outburst in my pant. Before i could say “Jack!” water started flowing down my pant.I was sacred to the bone.
I slowly got my phone and i dialed Biodun’s line with a shaky hand.He accepted at the first ring and he promised to come around immediately i informed him of my present condition.
Biodun came in just when the pain was getting immense. He hurriedly grab my maternity bag and he carried me into his car.My fear was out of this world when i realised that i was about to bring my babies into the world.I bit my lower lips and i looked at my stomach in fright.
At exactly 12:00pm onthe 7th of March,i screamed with the whole of my strength and the cry of my babies filled the air at St. Nicholas hospital.
I looked at my girls and i all i felt was the joy of motherhood.
NOTHING CAN BE MORE FULFILLING”
I looked at my girls and all i felt was the joy of motherhood. Nothing can be more fulfilling.
There was a striking resemblance between the girls right from birth.
As a mother, i could not even point out a difference between the both of them, they were a set of identical twins.
After been cleaned up, i was asked to feed my kids. I could remember, shedding tears of joy as the girls s—-d from my dry boobs. Everything was like a dream come through for me and i saw the girls as the reward for all the hardship i went through.
There and then promised myself that i wouldn’t let go of my girls for anything in the whole world.
I stayed back at the hospital for awhile after delivery. Biodun was the only one that stood by me throughout this period of time and he even scheduled his annual leave for that month. He would bring us breakfast in the morning, buy lunch in the afternoon and go home to make dinner at night. During this period of time the hospital practically became Biodun’s home. He found pleasure in playing with the girls while i would sleep. He also stayed with me during sleepless nights when the girls are crying. We would carry the girls and dance round the ward the way Nigerian mothers does. Whenever the girls fall asleep, Biodun would sleep in a one armed chair while my babies and I would sleep on the comfortable bed. I did’nt know how i was going to repay him but i am eternally grateful for his support.
After spending a week in the hospital, we were due for discharge. Before I was discharged, the birth certificates of my kids were issued to me and i was surprised to see Biodun’s name on it as their father. I enquired for the reason why Biodun included his name and he made me understand that he did’nt include his name because he wanted to claim my children but he was lost on whose name to give when the babies father name was requested for. So he filled in his name for the main time.
Biodun wanted to request for a change in name after explaining his reasons to me but i kicked against the idea. To me James was not worthy to be call the father of my children and even though Biodun was just a friend, he had done more than what a father could do.
I left the hospital without changing the name on the birth certificate. Biodun drove us home afterwards and we were awesomely welcomed by a surprise party.
The sight that welcomed me was pleasant when we arrived my apartment. Biodun had the whole interior decoration changed, he decorated the nursery and he even went to the extent of changing the furnitures. The whole apartment was sparkling. I did’nt know how biodun pulled the whole surprise off but he did it perfectly well.
Some of Biodun’s friends were present as well. I got gift from most of them and we had fun having a low key welcome party. Throughout the party, Biodun portrayed me as his girlfriend. He would whisper into my ears and touch me lightly on the cheek. Though i was happy to have him by my side, i was scared of falling for him as well.
At exactly 6:00pm, our guest exist the apartment and we were left to clean up the used dishes.
While washing the dishes, i to take a bold step by asking Biodun why he chose to stand by me. I selected my words carefully in order not to him or portray myself as an ungrateful soul.
After a long speech, I was able to convey my message to Biodun and his response was something i never imagined. Though the message was clear, it was hard to believe.
Biodun made me realise that he liked me the very day he set his eyes on me and the day i shared my story with him, he became more attracted to me. Though it was alittle crazy to be inlove with a lady who was carrying another man’s child,he decided to stick around and let fate decide the future.He also included that all he did was for my girls.
I agreed with Biodun’s decision to allow fate play it’s part and i also used the opportunity to thank him for all he had done.
Myself and biodun shared a kiss that day and we were eventually interrupted by the cries of my babies.
After two weeks of been discharged, my life started to take a new turn. Biodun added meaning to my life and existence. He represented the father i thought my kids would never have and he represented the family I left back home.
We found pleasure in doing everything together. Everything! including changing my babies napkins and watching them grow.
Having my girls, Biodun and my family, made my life beautiful.
I had the happiness i thought i had lost until one day.
I was about putting the girls to sleep when i heard a knock on my door. I gave the girls to Biodun and went for the door.
Standing in front of my door was a man in suit. He delivered a letter to me and i signed the delivery book.
I got the shock of my life when i read the content of the letter.
It was a court notice.
A notice that stated that i was sued by James.
To be continued