I can’t believe he just said that.
“Yo…you are such a f****ng pr!ck kyle!” I screamed, breaking down in front of him again.
“You guys are all the same! It doesn’t mean anything to you! It never fvcking does! How the hell do you expect me to forget about what you did to me? That isn’t possible in any way,kyle because when you did what you did, you tore away the biggest piece of my heart. You know, kyle? I used to be the only girl in school, who ever actually fell in love with you for you! The others? They only ever liked you for your image, how you look like, and your fvcking reputation! That wasn’t how it was for me though kyle. I actually loved you! I don’t know how I would be able to do that again, when you hurt me that bad! You are such an a$s, Kyle! I don’t even get how I fell for such an idiot like you! You are the biggest….” I stopped when Kyle slammed his lips into mine,for the second time!
Does he not get that I don’t want this?
My face burned with anger through the kiss, and I pushed him away with fury.
“No!” I snapped.
Kyle softened his eyes, opening his mouth to say something.
“I’m sorry Kiara.” He whispered as I shook my head.
I narrowed my eyes at him, tears still flowing down my cheeks.
And at that, I said the three words I never thought I would say to kyle.
“I hate you.”
I didn’t dare to see what his reaction would be, because I instantly ran back up the stairs to one of the bedrooms and tucked myself into the bed, sobbing uncontrollably.
I heard kyle running after me and shouting my name, but I didn’t turn back.
I even heard him banging on the door for the first few minutes, but I only pulled the covers over my head, wetting them with my tears.
I curled into a ball inside the covers, not caring that I didn’t change my clothes or anything.
I didn’t care that I didn’t eat anything.
I didn’t care that I was crying myself to sleep.
I only cared of how hurt, pained, and broken I was.
And how kyle, was the reason to it all.
“I hate you.”
Those three words echoed through my mind the whole night.
And for the first time in my life, I stayed up all night thinking about it.
I couldn’t sleep for damn sake!
But what fvcked with me the most, are these stupid feelings I get when I’m around her.
Everyday, I feel like sh*t after thinking of what I did to her two years ago.
And I really really hate these feelings.
Fvck, I sound like such a girl!
I mean…I have never felt this way before toward any girl. Let alone, anyone.
I don’t know if they are bad feelings or good, but so far, I think it’s bad.
Go with me here, I’m literally in so much pain when I see Kiara.
I always feel like a whole bullet sped straight through my heart.
The way her eyes are always glossy and puffed up, her cute button nose all red, her lips not showing any sign of that beautiful smile, her eyes not sparkling like it usually would.
It kills me.
And the worst part is, I don’t even know why it does.
I stared at the ceiling in the bedroom I slept in last night.
Kiara locked herself in another room so I figured I should leave her alone.
Honestly, I regret what I said to her last night about forgetting how I hurt her.
I guess I should have thought that through.
But, I never once thought it would affect her this much.
Well, that proves I’m the world biggest jerk.