“What? You’re asking me to leave your house?”
“Yes I am. And I’m dead serious about it. Park your stuff and leave my house. I can’t afford to share the same roof with an ingrate like you anymore.”
“Has it gotten to this?
“Yes it has. It has even gotten beyond this. The sooner you leave the better for us all. I would so like it if you vamoose this very night.”
“Cynthia. Do you have any idea what you’re saying?” I…..(Cynthia cuts me in with a yell, as she rises from her bed to face me as though ready to get physical)
“Shut your trap young man! I’m asking you to leave my house and you stand here questioning me? What part of LEAVE MY HOUSE don’t you understand? I give you till tomorrow morning to leave. Period!”
She pushed me out of the way and left the room to the sitting room in anger. That was when my ego, which had been heavily sleeping for years awoke and got the better part of me. I was angry indeed for the first time with Cynthia and was going to unleash it on her, not in retaliation but because her words had really provoked me. How could she ask me to leave her house? Now she’s calling me an ingrate? And all these were because she found out there was a girl I treasured and obviously preferred to her. Cynthia had done me great good, that fact is certain, but was I to repay her by becoming her man. I didn’t even ask her to be my girl in the first place. I would have anyway. As a matter of fact, I was ready to, but the process was interrupted and I ended up not saying any word to that direction till this very day. Maybe she hadn’t taken that to heart yet or wasn’t even aware I didn’t. Now she has robbed poo on my face and I had to let out my heart to her before leaving her house for good.
I paced down to meet her in the sitting room and she stood up against me to continue with her bitter ranting but I cut her in before she could say a word.
“Shut up and listen to me Cynthia” I said with much anger. “You may think of me to be worse than the devil. I have no problems with that. But I pray you don’t come across another human that will make you see this devil as a god. As far as you’re concerned, I have betrayed you, deceived you, hurt you, stole from you, used you, and did the ugliest things to you. But I would have you know that all the while I’ve done nothing but prevent myself from taking advantage of you in all the ways I would have if I was as bad as you have labeled me to be. Now tell me Cynthia; you gave me access to your bank account which contains all your money. Did I ever withdraw any money from there without telling you about it first? And in these past two years, have I withdrawn anything close to 5% of the money in that account, yet you call me a robber. Did I oblige when you offered to buy me a car in addition to the one you bought me barely three months after I came to America? Yet you call me an extortionist. Did I ever give in to any of those rosy proposals of yours that required a fortune to acquire? Most of all, did I take advantage of your feelings for me to make love to you as much as you wanted me to? I even took overdose of sleeping pills just to pass out and avoid tempering with your body unduly because I couldn’t tell you to your face that I wasn’t going to do it. Maybe you would have sent me out of your house if I told you so. Who knows?
Now why do you think I did all that? I knew my heart belonged to another girl and was trying hard to retrieve it from her and make it yours permanently. Unfortunately I couldn’t. So am I to blame for that. Cynthia, the only wrong I’ve done to you, which I will ever regret, is not telling you about my relationship with Ogechi beforehand. Of course I didn’t tell you because I didn’t see the need to. Even you Cynthia have not told me anything about your past relationships have you? I wasn’t really expecting to see Ogechi again and was in the process of getting to love you sincerely when she popped off and I couldn’t just let her go. C’mon, you know how it is when a man’s heart is involved in this thing called love. And now that I ask for a chance to tell you how it all started between her and me so that you can understand where we’ve come from, you don’t want to listen. Instead you call me names that are unfitting for even senseless things.”
“I will call you more because those are what you are” she retorted, nothing but a sick needy coward. Oh, so you expect me to thank you for not doing all that to me right? Alright then, kudos Jesusboy. You were such an angel to have not extorted money from me, to have rejected my kind offers, and not making love to me. I think I should recommend you for Guinness book of records. You’ve really done well to Cynthia. Haha, done well to Cynthia my foot!
What about The Masters’ Degree Program you’re rounding up three months from now? Was it your doing? Weren’t you in some local radio station presenting junk programs before I suggested you come over and further your studies abroad? That aside. What about the movie directors and music producers you now work with and make cool dollars which prevented you from spending more than 5% of the money in my bank account? Did I not connect you to them? I have housed you and taken care of you like I was your wife, and you were enjoying the feeling all along. Now you stand here to count what and what you didn’t do to hurt me. Wasn’t it to your advantage? And am I not hurt now? You are nothing but a silly ingrate who couldn’t even do the least thing as repay my kindness”
“And how else was I supposed pay your kindness? I retorted. By sleeping with you? eeh Cynthia? “Would you consider s-x a perfect way of showing appreciation for your kindness?”
I walked close to her with an evil countenance and held her violently by the arm and asked angrily;
“IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT, HUH?” I asked as I shook her back and forth a little bit violently.
“Let me go, you brute” she plead. “You’re hurting me.”
I pushed her down to the sofa with much anger in my heart.“You want to get laid don’t you?” I asked with that same evil countenance as I unbuttoned my shirt like a child molester who was about to prey on his victim.
“Get away from me” Cynthia yelled and made to get up from the sofa, but I held her back and pushed her down more violently than ever.
It was clear to her that the beast in me had awakened by reason of her harsh words. She reached for her phone and dialed 911, but I collected the phone from her and smashed to pieces on the floor. How could she have called me such names? Now I was going to show her a display of those characters she called me.
When Cynthia saw me smash her phone, it was obvious to her that I was out of control and was capable of anything without a second thought. Nevertheless she still tried to pull some silly lame stunts that couldn’t take her anywhere.
“Get away from me. I’m going to sue you if you dare touch me.” She said with much apparent fright.
“So now you want me to get away from you?” I asked sarcastically. “Isn’t this what you always wanted? I’m leaving your house tomorrow anyway. And I can’t leave without appreciating you for all the good you’ve done to me. Woes betide me if I do that. And since s-x is your idea of a worthy appreciation, you’re gonna get it hard from me here and now.”
“Jesusboy please don’t do this. I don’t want it.” She cried out. “Stop it”
“Did you just call me Jesusboy? I thought you said I was the devil? And now you don’t want it anymore? It wouldn’t be fair of me to leave your house tomorrow without appreciating you. So let’s get down to business at once!”
“No oooooo” Cynthia screamed. “Please stop this foolishness.”
I ignored her pleas, raised her up from that sofa and pushed her hard against the wall. Cynthia had tempered with my person by calling me “NEEDY,” amongst the many other unwholesome names she called me, one of which depicted something like me NOT BEING MAN ENOUGH due to not sleeping with her. What I was doing was no way of showing her how man enough I was, but I was angry. And you know that thing they say about anger; IT MAKES YOU SEE WHITE AS BLACK.
She tried to struggle with me but surrendered when she got weak and couldn’t do much to save herself anymore. She looked in my eyes and saw blood coldness and evil determination. She may have wanted love making from me, but definitely not from the me I had transformed to. She began shedding tears immediately and her mouth gave way to tender pleas;
“What you’re about doing will rob you of the honor and reputation you’ve built for yourself over the years. Anyone who hears it will despise you and you’ll definitely end up in jail for forcing yourself to get something I had given to you freely for countless times and you rejected. Think of that before you proceed. No matter how much my words hurt you; they can’t be compared to the hurt I felt when I discovered that the guy I had given my heart to was truly in love with another girl. I nearly lost my life in the process. Have you forgotten that already? No woman in my position will smile at you after being through such ordeal as I have in the past weeks. No matter how angry you are at me right now, you should also consider my pain. I loved you with all my heart and was ready to give the world for you. Calling you names and throwing angry words at you are the least I can do right to express the immeasurable pain I feel inside of me. But if you want to manhandle me and rape me afterwards, go ahead. Just remember that it would only add to the evil you have done to me for the past years. I pray I die in the process. That way I get to skip the misery and depression I would live with if remain alive.
The many striking statements Cynthia made killed my will to proceed; I set her free and walked away from her to my room to cool off. She went to her room also and changed from the rented nightie into something else. I flashed back on my life and saw that though I hadn’t really done a lot to jeopardize my future, I had done a little to change a great part of it. I started crying as I thought about the supposed mistakes I had made all the while and the consequences that were to follow. I lost Ogechi my love, and stood no chance with Cynthia. These two ladies were the best I had ever seen in the world.
Losing them both wasn’t going to do much good to my marital affair. Who was going to win my heart like Ogechi? And who was going to love and care like Cynthia? I had lost two precious stones and may have to make do with fine wood all my life. Well, that’s the best I thought I could find besides them. But then, I crossed Cynthia out completely, for she had humiliated me by asking me to leave her house. The only one I was truly losing remained Ogechi, the only one I ever truly loved. The denouncement didn’t permit us to be together again, so I guessed I just had to finish up with my program and proceed to start a new life somewhere in Hollywood.
Thanks to Cynthia, I was now financially stable and well connected. It was just a matter of coming in contact with time and chance to hit stardom and live the life I had always dreamed of living, and also have everything I ever desire except the one thing I had always had; LOVE
To be continue on Monday
