My expectations were dampened but not so much cos d person I saw was welcome. Deji had been discharged from d hospital on Saturday but b4 he left I had given him tips of what to do during his spare time. He had been scheduled to come thrice a week. He
looked s smashing & I gazed at him with a smile on my face.
“u were not expecting me right?” he said & I knew he had caught my earlier facial expression. I smiled at him embarrassed
“Not really. How are u doing young man? u look exceptional” I said meaning it.
“Yeah yeah, my life has changed. I am better than fine cos my memory is back”,he said almost yelling & my eyes opened wide. I was out of my seat in an instant & I started asking technical questions & when passed d test, we both laughed happily.
He brought out a cheque & stretched it towards me but I refused without even checking d amount. We argued for a while but he later hands down when he saw that I stood my grounds. We chatted for a while & when he left, I was smiling, very happy for him
*TWO WEEKS LATER*
I threw my pen on d table furiously & hissed. I hadn’t been able to concentrate at all thinking about Richard. It was like he was tactfully dodging me cos I did not cross his
path once. I had wanted to go to his office many times but I thought better of it but now, I wasn’t finding it funny.
Everyone & everything makes me angry & I could not focus at all, even music did not seem to wipe out d feeling of emptiness I felt so I decided to remedy d situation by taking away d façade & doing what my heart
I left my office & got to my secretary’s desk. “Joke, pls postpone any
engagement I might have 4 d next one hour, I need to get somewhere. If there is an emergency, u can call me”, I said. I was about getting to
Richard’s office when my brain started bugging me with d fact that I should not be doing this but I was past caring. I saw his secretary & greeted her,
“hello Tolani, how are u doing?” I asked to sound casual.
“I am fine Miss Belina”, she responded.
“Pls is Doctor Richard in? I need to see him urgently”, I said hoping to get a positive response
“Yes, he is. Wait let me inform him” she said picking d intercom
“NO. Please don’t. I want it to be like a surprise visit,pls”
“Aaahh,pls o, I might get into trouble. He has been so harsh on everyone recently & I don’t want to lose my job”
“Don’t worry, he won’t do anything like that, I promise”, without waiting for a reply, I went to d door & knocked. I heard d familiar voice say come in, a little above d normal but I entered. The sight of him made me forget all I wanted to say but he was not looking at me, his eyes were on d books on his table
“Yes?” he said without taking his eyes from d books. I took a deep breath &
“Richard” His head jerked up instantly & his blue eyes pierced into my soul. I was shaking there,not knowing what to say so I looked at my hands & said whatever came to my
“Richard, I know I have offended u & I am sorry. I should not have said what I said but I just could not imagine myself falling for a man so I tried to push u away with my words. I know u have been avoiding me & u should cos what I said is bad, it is very bad but I can’t concentrate, I have been trying to work but I just can’t, I… I…” I stopped unable to continue. My eyes were wet & I just wanted to run out of there but I noticed a finger raise my head up & I was surprised that he was already at my front.
We stared into each other’s eyes & I just wanted him to hold me close cos my heart was pounding wildly. I don’t know who moved forward between d two of us but I noticed that d space between us had thinned & all I wanted was to have him kiss me. He bent his head forward like he read my thoughts & closed his lips against mine. I was totally lost & when we finally broke off some minutes later, he placed his head against mine & looked into my eyes.
“u don’t know just how long I have wanted to kiss u, heart. I love u so much”, he said
“I love u too with all my heart Richard”. He kissed me again.
After d kiss,we just held on to each other & seemed to melt into one another
We went to d couch in his office & there, I explained everything that happened with Kelvin, my mum,
everything & he was so sympathetic. He promised never to hurt me but respect me always.
He then went forward to explain everything about his family, mother, love life especially his affair with Tonia & how it had become his nightmare after her supposed death & I felt his pain. I remembered that I had felt he had a dark side but I never imagined something as serious as that.
He apologized for keeping away & said that he wanted to give me time to get over what I was going through & that he had climbed d steps severally on his way to my office but had returned back after a 2nd thought. We kissed, laughed & by d time my phone
started ringing, I discovered that I had spent 3hrs with him.