“Are you okay? ” His voice jots me out of my thoughts and I realize that he’s still here, standing in front of me with my back still against the wall and I looked up at him before nodding. He smiles a little like it was the first time he would ever do that and drop me gently on my feet before moving back a little and I shift uncomfortably between my legs as I breathe out.
We kissed just now, what will happen next?
Will he leave the way he had left that girl he fingered at that restaurant?
The thought made me sad and I was surprised with the way I’m reacting on this. Was I foolish to have allowed him to kiss me? Even more foolish to have kissed back? He must think that I am. After what I had done, after what I have seen him done. I really am. I’m sure he’s gonna walk right away now, leaving without no words. Just like he has always done. This would change nothing between us. The more I think about it, the more it makes me really angry.
“Um, is something wrong? ” He is still here? I raise my head to look at him and he’s raising his eyebrows at me.
“Uh? ” Is the only word that managed to leave my mouth.
“You’re doing that thing. I think you’re thinking of something, is everything okay? Is it the kiss? ” He takes a single step towards me and I can feel the heat radiating off both our bodies.
I gulp in, staring at him before shaking my head.
“No, I just thought you would want to leave after what happened. ” I let out shamefully. I’m such a fool, why the hell did I just said that?
“Leave? Do you want me to leave? ” I raise my head once again to look at him and he’s staring at me. This is quite surprising and I’m at loss of what to say. Isn’t that what they usually do They leave once they get what they want, right?
They are all like that. The bad boys, I have never been entangled with one but I have read too much novels not to know about them.
“I don’t know. ” I answer truthfully. Do I want him to leave? At first I had wanted to, I had wanted him to leave me alone and stay far away from me but now, surprising myself I don’t want him to. I don’t want him too close either but I just want him this close. I don’t know if that even makes any sense?
“Okay then. I take it as you don’t want me to leave. ” When I turn my head to look at him, a smirk is dancing across his lips and I roll my eyes at him before walking away from the close proximity we were in and walking over to bed.
“What do you want to do then? Since you are not leaving. I’m sure you want to do something. ”
“Oh, I have many things I want to do. ” He winks and my cheeks heats up, turning probably a feel shade of red when I realize what he’s talking about. God. He’s so…
“But that could wait for later. ” Later? He’s not running away after leaving here? He’s coming back here? “For now, I just want to watch you. You seem to be doing something before I walked in. Do that and I will just watch you. ” I know his eyes are just words and they have no meaning behind them but they made my heart flip, in a way I had never thought was possible.